&&They Call Me Heartbreaker [ Jai]

[Karlee Lynne Betzina]

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Karlee typically hated malls. Or rather, the people in them. She was never a girly girl type. She never really had the privledge. She didn't really have any friends as of yet, so coming here alone felt, well, lonely. She sighed as she shuffled around the mall. She was wearing a pair of jeans with holes in the knee's and on the pockets. Karlee was also wearing a tight, black tanktop. She didn't typically like tee shirts. She didn't like wearing loose shirts. They made her feel frumpy. She had no money to spend on new clothes, she just felt like looking. As her emerald green eyes glanced around the mall, she couldn't help but feel a pang of anger and hatred as a group of preppy girls walked by her. Resisting a vichous growl, she just kept it at a glare, her lip twitching slightly. Hey, the inner animal took over sometimes, ya know?

She sighed, and walked to the You are here! sign. It was a big mall. There was a lot of stores, and she thought, hey, why not hit them all? It was about three p.m and her classes where done for the day. With nothing to do and nobody to hang out with, why not walk aimlessly around the mall? The sign told her that she was by a shoe store and a few clothes out fitters. I'll just start here I guess. She walked into a store called Zoomies were they sold a lot of skater clothes, and "gangster" style clothes. It made her so mad when guys sagged there pants. She was in a gang for as long as she could remember, people didn't dress like that. I mean, some did, but most didn't. These wannabe gangsters didn't know what they where doing. They didn't know crap about who they where imitating. A dark skinned kid walked by with a sideways cap on and a long shirt and his jeans sagging so low his pockets where at his knee's. He had to waddle. Who really invented that?

She rolled her eyes as a guy walked by with his eyes obviously on her. She walked around the store until she found the girls jeans. They where torn & had holes in them, like the ones she was wearing. The ones she was wearing, she put the holes there. These ones, where seventy dollars for jeans with holes in them. What the heck is wrong with the world these days? She decided she would try a pair on. She found her size, which was ones, and went into the girls dressing room. She tried on the jeans and looked at herself in the mirror. Damn. I pull off these holy jeans. She took the jeans back off and put on her old ones. She threw them back on the rack and continued to walk around.

Karlee stopped at the rack with all the "gangster" style hats, and grabbed a few. She stepped in front of the mirror and started to try them on. There was not many people in here right now. She posed a couple times with the hat in the mirror, then laughed and sat there and looked at herself. Her bright green eyes stared back at her. Long, chocolate brown hair was curled lightly around her shoulders. The hat she was wearing was black with light green trim. She really liked it. But she had zilch money with her. Who would know if she ''accidently'' snuck out with it...?

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[shadzie]

Jai wandered around outside the mall, he didn't really want to go inside but he'd been hanging around the outside for over an hour now, he was so lame, who actually paced in the same spot for over an hour... oh yes, people without a life, thats right, he fell straight into that category, how sad. oh well, if life threw you a knife, just throw it right back as hard as you can, or just take it then blame the person standing next to you, that always works. if your good at it. if not your in trouble, or the person nex to you will get ya.. Karma will always find you, no matter how strong or fast you are, its enevitable.

Jai looked around, there where some girls squealling about some new clothes, or whatever they had, oh no, one of them had a little puppy, handbag dogs, eeww. time to go somewhere else, squealling is bad for the eardrums. with that decision in mind, jai decided inside the mall would be safer, it had a no dog policy. jai wandered inside slowly, well reluctantly, he looked around and saw a guy standing with security, if people are gonna steal they gotta do a good job of it.. silly people. Jai walked into a store and started looking around, it had alot of shoes, with a sigh, he realized he'd walked into a womens shoe store, maybe he could try on some high heels, nah, that would draw attention to himself.. and give people the wrong impression. not what he was aiming for, instead he walked out to find a new store, that sold things for males as well. shoudln't be hard to find, men had needs too.

Jai stopped walking as a group of girls caught his sight, he raised and eyebrow and grinned at a brunnette girl, who smiled back then just whispered and giggled with her friends... immature. he turned away and continued on his original path, now he was on a mission... MENS STORE! with a small chuckle Jai once again thought about high heels, why did girls like them so much, they didn't look like the most comfortable shoe, he had to find out, anyway, it would be fun to see if he could walk around in them, or even get a pair to fit, oh and see the checkout ladies face, that would be utterly priceless, but right now, his mission. he needed new jeans, his where totally ripped along the back. Stupid money, you needed it for everything, even clothes, which you needed, unless you wanted to run around naked, not the best option.

Jai wandered into an alright looking shop, it was called... where does it say, oh yes, zoomies. weird name. He looked around at a few shirts and cringed "who invented this... eeww" He knew talking to yourself was a sign of going crazy, but hey, if him turning into a dog wasn't crazy, then, what was? He looked around until he found the jeans, ahh, eeww. what happened to decent clothes, the world was full of gangbanger wannabe's, what did they think that life involved, they wouldn't last a minute on the streets. jai sifted through the jeans until he found a pair that where decent, he put them over his shoulder and went in search of a belt, they had to be around here somewhere.

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This was too much for her. All these people thinking they knew anything about being on the streets? No, they didn't know a thing. Growing up like that was no glamourus thing either. If she could go back in time and change things, she would have never entered the gang. It was a for life thing. Unless you where dead, you where part of that gang. A lifetime comitment. Like selling your soul to the devil. She remembered the forever scar on her shoulder blade that marked her. A heart with a dagger piercing it.

She swivled the hat around this way and that before just tilting it slightly sideways. She would walk out and nobody would notice her. And if they did, she had a way of being able to talk her way out of things. Was it her unmistakeable vibrant green eyes? It could be. Long, dark hair that fell in many waves, framing her face and shoulders? It could be. She never really knew, but she had a way with guys. She could talk almost any guy into doing anything. It was one thing the gang bosses loved about her. She could talk her way out of any sitchuation that came about.

Karlee walked a little ways, the hat still on her head, and decided to look for belt. The guys and girls belt where in the same place. There was a guy looking through the belts as well. He had a pair of jeans tossed up over his shoulder. And.. oh shit.. golden brown eyes... golden brown hair... she recognized him immediately. Her heart felt like it was about to beat out of it chest and her stomach drop to her knee's. Jai? She almost whispered. Her eyes inquisitive, not understanding what he would be doing here. Had he followed her? Was he a shifter too?

No, that was impossible. Jai couldn't be a shifter too- could he? She had known him a long time. They had been friends for ever. Or, as good a friends as you could be behind everyones backs. Since they where members of rival gangs, they could only see each other when nobody else was around. She couldn't help but stare. She was dazed, confused. Was she dreaming? Or was it real? She had no idea and if he was dreaming, she wasn't about to wake up. Finaly something familiar and comforting had come along. She wasn't nessicaraly alone anymore.

Unless, this wasn't Jai. Just some guy that looked like him. She didn't think she could mistake jai though. She really didn't. Or, maybe perhaps, Jai hated her for leaving without a notice? Since Karlee had just left the city to come here without telling anybody, maybe Jai hated her? She couldn't bare that thought. Still struck by awe, she didn't realize she was still staring. She blinked her emerald eyes and looked away, almost blushing. Whats up? Yeah, casual greetings. Knock em dead, sweetheart!

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Jai shifted through a few belts and shook his head, they just didn't seem right, they where too, too, gangbanger wannabe. he let out a sigh and decided, everytime he didn't like a belt, he'd simply drop it on the floor.. One, two, three, belts on da floor.. eeeww, gross belts touching feet, kicking them away works. Jai smiled and continued his mission, but instead of dropping them onto his feet, he threw them about a metre away, those belts didn't deserve to be on a rack. After a while Jai came to another belt that caught his eye. "OOOH, Shiny...sparkles." He grinned and grabbed the belt for a closer look, it would really make a statement, but, ewww, floor. new belt.. jai stopped sifting for a moment, was his attention span really that small, that he could be entertained by a sparkly belt.. what was he turning into, a shiny belt lover? naaah, never!

after throwing almost every belt to the floor, he finally found one he liked, it was plain black and simple, just what he needed not some fancy shiny thing. Jai smiled and also put the belt over his shoulder and looked at his mess... shopping was fun. his master plan on how to steal the new clothes was to simply walk out with them over his shoulder, then of course, leg it as fast as he could. stupid excersise, who invented it? they where silly.... the belts where fun so Jai decided to return to the jeans and start puting them on the floor, new mission, destroy bad clothes! lucky the chashier was busy, otherwise it would be mission failed.. and that would annoying.

it only took a few minutes so he returned to the belts, it wasn't untill then that he heard the voice, it was too familiar, he knew it from somewhere, this knowledge made him reluctant to turn around, what if it was someone he didn't want to see, what if it was karma again. he knew he couldn't avoid it forever so he slowly turned around. the shock covered his face as he recognized her, Karlee, how could he forget after all the effort sneaking behind everyones back.. it was impossible, what where the odds of them being at the same place after not seeing each other for so long, almost impossible.. "hey, what's up? i havent seen you for ages? what are you doing here?" Jai couldn't wipe the expression from his face, he just couldn't believe it. wow!

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Who would have ever thought that her partner in crime, her right hand man, her long time crush... would end up here as well? It was crazy. She thought he was gone forever. She thought that whole life was left behind her, but just seeing him stirred up old feelings. Her stomach twisted. Every time they where together, they always did something bad. It had been happening from the time they met. They where like brother and sister, although Karlee had always wanted more. When Jai met Kate... Karlee was heart broken, but she always said she was happy for him. What else could she do? Karlee and him where like Romeo and Julliet, supposed to be enemies. Starcrossed lovers.. on one side anyways. Karlee had always loved Jai, although she knew he did not feel the same way. Maybe like a sister, but nothing more.

She remembered the long nights driving at top speed around in his car, out running the cops, dodging tickets and arrest barely. Yeah, those where the good times. The times she remembered. She had never forgotten about him, how could you forget about the first person you truely ever loved? Besides her brother, but that was a family like love. Jai and Karlee had been through so much together. It was hard to forget it. Hell, they had even escaped a jail cell together. Almost getting him killed in the process. She knew though, it was impossible to escape the past. But, she assumed, this part of the past was supposed to stick with her. She belived firmly in the fact that everything happened for a reason.

When Jai turned around, and she saw him smile, a grin spread across her face. She hardly heard what he said before she ran at him and wrapped her arms around him. Was this all a dream? She didn't want to wake up if it was. This was too good to be possible! Oh. My. God. Was all she could manage to get out. She didn't wanna take her arms away from him, so she looked up at him with a smile still on her face. He really hadn't changed much since she last saw him. Karlee knew just about all his secrets. These two knew everything about each other... Her emerald eyes sparkled as she looked up at him. Yeah it's been ages. When he asked what she was doing here, she had to giggle a little. Weren't they all here for the same reason? I go to school here on the island. She figured that would give him a hint, unless he was a human just visiting. It could happen.

Oh my god Jai you have no idea how much I have missed you. Her voice was quiet, but she was unable to take her arms from around him.

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Seeing Karlee again forced so much repressed emotion to the surface, until now, he'd forgotton how to feel, or at least he thought so. today was a great day, to good to possibly be real. for the first time since Kate's death, he wished he was sober, atleast then he'd know he wasn't tripping out, either way he wasn't about to just let Karlee slip away again, it would kill him too lose her too. But it wasn't just the history they shared together, it was a love that nothing and no-one could destroy, not even death, it was too deep, what that love meant, he didn't quite know, was it the kind that he shared with kate, or was it family like?

jai blinked a few times to mke sure he wasn't about to cry, after making sure he was cry free, he studied Karlee to make sure he hadn't made mistake, her face was unmistakable, he would recognize it anywhere, even twenty years from now. he remembered the car that was the centre of most of their memories, if only he hadn't leant it to his friend, he knew better, when his friend told him he'd been caught by the cops and it got crushed, he wasn't suprised, just heartbroken. After Karlee left, the car was all he had to remember her by, it was the centre of the memories, when it was gone, he felt like she was truely gone too and that alone, almost killed him. He'd managed to buy a new one, but at the moment it wasn't as nice to look at, the only thing he'd worked on ws the engine, so it ws pretty fast, just not the same memories

All these memories made him wonder if they'd get up to the same things, or if she would just take off on him again, did she even know Kate was gone? that he'd sat in the hopital covered in her blood hours after she was gone, trying to get grip, or even how her parents had blamed him at the funeral. just thinking bout it brought that stinging sensation to his eyes, the tears threatening to overflow an make Karlee think differently of him. He forced himself to blink and take a deep breath, he wouldn't let these emotion come through, they where too painful, it made him feel like curling up in a ball and screaming. when Kate had died he'd collapsed in the hospital and done a similiar thing, it was uncontrollable, he could feel it coming, the intense pain, he focused again on karlee, it helped, somehow he managed to stay in on peice..

Only after managing to pull himself together did he realize he hadn't done it, it was karlee's arms round him that stopped him falling apart and he was thankful. he couldn't help but throw his arms around her in return and kissed her head. Jai froze, realizing what he'd just done, would Karlee slap him? he wasn't thinking, it was just a reaction, why was that his first reaction? "umm, sorry... i just started school here, ya know, gotta do something.. i have an idea.. we get out of this dreadfull place, coz its killing me. and go somewhere else."

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Karlee rememberd Kate, Jai's girlfriend. Was he still with her? Had they broken up? She didn't know. Should she ask? She was going to be heartbroken if he said yes. He obviously didn't seem too upset. Although, he didn't really seem to clean either. Clean as in sober. Karlee knew Jai better than most people, and she could tell even when he was a little bit high. It was a benefit of knowing somebody. She loved him but she prefered being around him when he was sober. Atleast, off the drugs. She loved alchohol, and the two of them used to drink together all the time. He was fun to be around when he was drunk. Karlee was just kind of a whore when she was drunk. She was pretty much the epitome of a whore.

So, how is Kate, anyways? Karlee had to ask. Her eyes lost a little bit of thier luster when she asked. She loved looking into Jai's golden brown eyes. One of the few people who could actualy make her blush. She wasn't shy around him by any means, but she loved him. Kind of like a brother, kind of like more than a brother. She kind of hoped him and Kate were no longer together, just for her own selfish needs. She hated the fact that after all this time she was so addicted to him still. He was never off her mind most of the time. She hadn't had many relationships since Jai started dating Kate, because she was so hooked on him. Was it bad, to be that caught up into somebody who was into somebody else? She had had a few meaninless relationships with guys, that meant nothing, just to get her mind off things.

Do you still have your car? She was going to start getting into the twenty questions mode, she could feel it. She had so many things to ask. So many things she wanted to know. Was he a shifter too? She wanted so desperatly to know. Was he an animal like her? A cheetah? A tiger maybe? Was it possible to shift into a unicorn? She had so many questions running through her head. Why where cheeseburgers so weird tasting? So much she wanted to just sit down and ask him questions for hours. But what would be the fun in that? She felt the bad side of her acting up again. Like she just wanted to run around with him and start vandalizing churches again. Addrenaline was pumping through her veins like it always did when he was around.

When jai put his arms back around her, she felt immediatly safe. He had always been like a guard dog, always there to be loving and loyal and protect her. He had always been that way. Why was he that way. She felt him kiss her head and she smiled. She kissed him on the neck. She couldn't reach his head. He was a bit taller than her. She wanted to do so much more. She always had around him. Love was a complicated emotion, you know? Why was it so hard to not love somebody who had been there for you your whole life? Had the looks and the amazing personality and you couldn't help but love them. She knew other girls where all over Jai, so she highly doubted he was even single, but he would always be her best friend, no matter what.

When Jai talked, she took her arms from around him, and plopped them down at her sides. Definatly. Where should we go? Her bright green eyes twinkled again when she looked into his golden brown ones.

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Jai didn't want to let go of Karlee, she held him together, in one piece, her arms, her eyes even her presence all helped. It amazed him, he didn't think he'd ever feel even the slightest bit whole again, that he'd have massive piece of his heart missing forever. Even in this short time, he could feel it starting to heal, he knew it would never completely heal, but it could become bearable, eventually. With Karlee back, his knew car, might end up with the same memories as the last, well, not completely the same, but it could become as precious.

Just as Jai was starting to feel whole, he felt as if he would fall apart again, it was Kate's name, out in the open, ringing through his ears, Karlee had asked how she was, it wasn't much, but it was enough too make him shudder an bring all those emotions to the surface. If Karlee wasn't holding onto him, he'd fall into peices where he stood, why couldn't he contol it? there was a time when he could kill someone, and he'd stay in one peice, he knew he was selfish, that the people he had killed, also had someone that loved them, someone that was going through what he was.

Jai knew that he'd have to answer Karlee's question, he took a deep breath to pull himself together enough to answer, to say her name, and what happened. "Kate... she, uh... She died.." He felt himself shudder again, he felt his eyes filling up, and blinked hard, taking another shaky breath. Jai swallowed hard, and slightly squeezed Karlee, he wouldn't fall apart, not here, not in front of Karlee, he'd wait till he was alone, so no-one would see. He rested his chin on Karlee's head as one tear managed to escape, she couldn't see, she would think differently of him, she knew him as the tough guy that never backed down, not this, not the way he was now.

Then there it was, the subject change he needed, he sighed with relief, he'd be able to distract himself, he'd tell Karlee the whole story about what happened, then he'd forget the need to fall apart. "the car... well, my friend borrowed it, and got into a car chase with the cops, now the car can easily outrun their cars, but he got caught, they took the car and crushed it, he told me while i was bailing him out of jail, so i left him there and haven't spoken to him since. i've got a new one, it's just as fast, but not as nice on the eyes yet, it's still a work in progress.." He was happy the small kiss hadn't offended her, instead she'd returned it, but on his neck, if he had've known he probably would've picked her up so she could reach his head, but it was too late now.

Even as Karlee took her arms away from him, he didn't completely remove his, only moving so that one arm was draped over her shoulders. He'd always felt comfortable round Karlee, like he could tell her almost anything, but now, he had another fear, that she would leave, without notice, just when he needed her the most. He'd always defended her when she was in trouble, and he still would, despite her taking off earlier, he couldn't help it, it was the whole love thing, that he couldn't figure out. When she agreed to leave, Jai was over the moon and shrugged. "i honestly don't care, anywhere is better than here, i can show you my new car, the work in progress.." Without waiting, jai started walking, pulling Karlee long beside him, not forcefully, his arm was lose, giving her the choice to object if she wanted too.

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She was happy for once in her life. After she found out she could shift, her life seemed to fall apart. She had to leave after that. There was no way she could stay there when she had killed somebody. Well, and she was teen age girl who could shape shift into a cheetah. She knew that Jai knew her brother, Tyler, who had taken the blame and went to jail for Karlee's murdering. Had he heard about it? Did he know what had happened? She wanted to tell Jai why she had left, but not here, not with people who could be humans. Humans couldn't know about the shifters. Hell, she didn't even know if Jai was human. It was weird, when the person you knew the best, you didn't even know if they where human. First thing you would notice you would think. Hmm.

Karlee could feel him tense when she asked about Kate. She wanted to look up at him but his chin was rested on her head. She was confused, and furrowed her brow slightly in confusion. She didn't mean to hurt or affend him. His grip on her tightened, but she didn't mind being closer to him. She felt a tear drop hit her head and she wanted to look at him but his grip on her was really tight. She tightened her grip on him as well. When he said that Kate had died, she felt her heart drop into her stomach. Oh, uhm, Im sorry hun. She truely was. She didn't know what to think. jai had loved Kate and Karlee knew that. Damn, what can I say to him to make him feel better? Jai had always been a tough guy but she didn't blame him for getting upset. That was a heart breaking thing.

When the subject changed to his car, Karlee felt slightly relived. She didn't like the car that all thier memories where in was impounded. Who was the friend? She knew a lot of Jai's old friends, so she might have known him. Jai was talking about his new car now. I would love to help you work on it. I don't know much about working on cars, but it could be just like old times? She grinned broadly, looking him in the eyes. She almost made a comment about when he said being "nice on the eyes". She always made flirty comments, but she didn't feel like now was the right time.

When Jai put his arm around her shoulder, she wasn't going to object. Without even realizing what she was doing, she removed his arm from around her and linked her fingers with his. It was a habit for her- and it was way to soon to be doing that. She had just seen him again. Oh crap, sorry. She said pulling her hand away. Her cheeks got slightly red. She wasn't easily embarrased, but that was slightly embarrasing to her. What if he didn't like her in that way? I would love to go see your car. She smiled again, her eyes twinkling as she walked with him, linking her arm with his. If he wanted to do anything else- he could make that choice.

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