Contained.yet.spontaneous >>combustion<< {/Zander}

[Mel Kucharski]

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Mel sat back from his computer, staring at at Seiffre's salutation before finally hitting the "log off" button and shutting it. He blinked a few times in order to adjust his eyes to the sudden darkness of the room. He tilted his head back and gave a long and deep sigh, trying to make sense of what he had just read. It was difficult to tell emotion through messages on a computer screen, but Zander was definitely upset about it all. It wasn't difficult to understand why, his first childhood lover had been killed, and by him presumably. Mel stood up, noticing the unsteadiness of his hands. He frowned and made a fist with it. Why were they quaking like a pair of autumn leaves all of a sudden? I was really cold to. Perhaps his anemia was acting up? Or maybe it were those final words Zander had issued, at Sief. Just like him, Sief was trying to find the root f the problem in order to eradicate it. But, it was met with poisonous and corrosive sarcasm. Mel didn't know Seiffre very well, apart from little c-box conversations, but he obviously was taken aback, as was the boy. He took it with more grace than Mel might've though.

Meandering over to the light switch Mel flicked it on. The room flooded with dull yellow light, it looked very... empty. The boy felt his very core reflect the room, empty and cold after the brief conversation. Zander hadn't issued any harsh words to him, of course, but what if Seif hadn't been there?Mel would've found himself in a mine field of Zander's emotions perhaps, with no visible escape route. An exceedingly dangerous game, and one that left Mel unsatisfied. He had to do something about that.

He slipped out of his day clothing and put on a large pail of plaid PJ pants and a large shirt with a tinge of pink to it. It was also quite cold so he took a recently-washed zip-up gray hoodie from off a door hook. He tied his hair back with a green rubber band before deciding he was ready to go. He also grabbed his little stuffed rabbit, Cassia, that he had gotten from his shopping trip with Aoi from his bed. It was mostly on whim, the toy had become somewhat of a companion to him in the crushing solitude of his room. He didn't really feel it would be odd to bring it, maybe it would put Zander into a better mood? He hoped that perhaps Zander had calmed down a bit and was willing to share or willing to be comforted if that's what he needed. Mel honestly didn't know what Zander wanted at this point, but he was determined to give it to him. That's what friends did right? Maybe that's what more-than-friends did?

The logic behind it was fuzzy, but Mel wasn't known for reading situations. In fact, he was actually somewhat nosy on some special occasions like this one. He turned off his light and made sure he had his key before leaving the room. Zander's room was on the first floor. It was a few flights down from 109. Mel hopped down the stairs, with a tight grip on Cassia. But when he reached the door on Zander's room he immediately felt wrong about something. His inner hamster was telling him to turn away and leave it, but Mel couldn't help it. His nerves were working against him, even going so far as to restrict his hand from knocking. Taking a breath he let he hand drop several times in staccato succession tok,tok,tok! He pulled his hoodie tight around his body and waited for some small reply.

Mel nearly missed the bus that day. Hiking up his power rangers backpack and finally decided to ditch his shoe. It would turn up in the lost and found eventually. At the time the boy was nearly six, but for now he was stuck in first grade. the boys had started being mean to him. He didn't understand why though. Today that had stolen one of his shoes, and that nearly cost his a bus ride. He finally was able to shuffle out to the buses and jump on before it pulled away. Looking up, he scanned for available seats in the front. There were none. Only the big kids sat at the back. That was crowded too. There was only one seat available. He decided to go for it, only noticing that there was a girl up against the window when he sat down. Feeling embarrassed, he turned his head away. The bus started and something happened, with the force of it the girl sort of fell, and inevitably she fell straight onto the boy's lap. She sat up quick, laughing out loud. Mel was mortified, his mouth hung slightly ajar. "Whoopsie!" the girl chimed, she appeared to be about his age, "Im Haley! What's you name?"

He placed a hand on his face and gave a tiny smile, "Aleksy.."

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tag; Zander~
notes; Bunneh -->Here and the black is flash back.
outfit; Hurr :3

[Zander Alesnia]

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He was at a loss of words for what just happened. He just spewed words, angry words, sarcastic words, it had all just flowed from his finger tips. Zander stared at the screen of his computer for a long moment, no one was in the room at this late hour. What really happened? He had not acted like that, like ever. No, not even when Missy was annoying him. Not only that but, to the guy he liked. He gently closed the screen of his lap top to be trapped in darkness. He didn't mind though, his eyes quickly adjusted to it, one benefit of being a fox. He gently sighed and got up and limped over to his mini-fridge. Zander pulled out left over sushi from his and Mel's date. He stared longingly at it. Mel... He shook his head at the memory, "I bet he never wants to talk to me again." he said out loud. Zander bit his bottom lip and crawled onto his bed with the closed container. He grabbed Twitch, his stuffed fox he's had since he was little. Tucking the fox under his arm, prying the lid off the container, calmly prying a tuna roll from the container and slipping it in his mouth, chewing. Sushi was never good the next week, but, that's all he had at the moment and when he was sad he'd eat. Zander finished off all of his sushi and sat the container on the dresser to the side. He pried the nicely set blanket off the bed where it was and crawled under, leaving only his head out on his pillow. Zander's blue orbs stared longingly at Jayden's empty bed next to him. A small sigh escaped his lips. A sudden wave of tired rushed over him and slammed him into a half sleep. He listened to the silent sounds around the room. The silence was soon broken by a knock. He gently grumbled. Maybe it was Jay, forgetting his key again. He limped over to the door and pulled it open. It took him a moment to comprehend that it was Mel. He stood staring absently at the boy for a long second. Zander groggily ran his fingers through his hair. "Mel, what are..." he trailed off realizing he was in only his boxers. "Hold on" he said sorrowfully disappearing from the door and returning in blue plaid pajama pants. His pale, scrawny torso still visible."Anything I can help you with?" he asked moving aside to let the boy in. click The lights flicked on and a bright yellow light temporarily blinded him.

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[Mel Kucharski]

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Mel hugged himself tight, shifting from foot to foot in an edgy way. Hs nerves were raw right now, as he still felt a bit scared. He pressed an ear against the wood of the door for any sign of movement. Hearing none, he stepped back. Give it five more seconds. he told himself, five more seconds then you're free to go. He counted silently to himself "One..two.. three.."

His verbal time-keeping was interrupted by a click from the door as it unlocked from the inside. He took a half step back as the door swung open to reveal an only partly dressed Zander on backdrop of black framed in the threshold. Mel's face heated up and he turned away, politely clearing his throat upon noticing Zander's clothing, or rather, lack thereof. Zander told him to wait a moment and disappeared into the unlit blackness of his dorm. Mel was left chewing his lip anxiously. Zander looked dead tired, perhaps he should try it in the morning? He could just run back to his dorm now and forget about it till morning. But, wouldn't that leave a bad impression on Zander? Plus he was here, if he had just dug himself into a hole than he had dug himself into a hole by his own doing. He probably shouldn't be meddling, but Zander seemed so hurt. Even over the internet. Mel simply couldn't allow it.

Zander reappeared, this time half-clothed, but sufficiently clothed. The blond wondered if he felt as cold as he did without a shirt on. Mel preferred keep his top on. Even though it would've been perfectly fine to take it off, being male, there was just something weird about it to him. The boy invited him in and Mel stepped in betraying the slightest bit of hesitation as he did though.

Click!

The room was flooded wit a dull yellow light. Mel felt the unmistakable burn of the sudden change just behind his retinas and blinked rapidly a few times to try and adjust. He looked around the newly lit room and prepared the words he had rehearsed in his mind. He turned on his heel a bit and looked back at the brunette, "Zander.." He took a breath and turned round, gently placing a hand on the boy's fore-arm, "Listen.. I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have asked. I wasn't thinking and.. and.." he removed his hand. "I didn't know.. and i'm really sorry about that."

"Aleksy.." Haley repeated his birth name slowly to herself, trying to memorize it. Then she leaned in close and scrutinized Aleksy's features. The boy was taken aback at her suddenness, he scooted away, but the persistent little girl caught his arm. "Don't go away.. I just want to see what you look like!"

Aleksy shrugged and stayed put, "that's kinda weird.."

Haley pouted at him, "No it's not! My mama says that you have to remember everything about a person's face because then they'll be a friend forever and ever!"

The blonde child blinked in surprise, "You really think so?"

Haley nodded in total confidence, "I know so. Aleksy is my friend now!" She smiled then frowned. "Hey.. what happened to your shoe?"

Aleksy looked down and wriggled his toes from inside if the sock. "Someone took it, I don't know where it is.."

"Who took it?"

Word count; 601
tag; Zander~
notes; In the flashback parts, I'll be referring to Mel as Aleksy, as that was his original name c;
outfit; Hurr :3

[Zander Alesnia]

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He was apologizing for asking, which was expected, Mel apologizes for everything. He also apologized, or as Zander perceived it, for Nick's non-extinction. Everyone always says they're sorry for his loss. Or sorry that he had to go through that. Why?! Why was everyone so sorry! They had done nothing wrong. If anyone's to blame it is himself, for believing that some one he'd love would stay in his life. Mel probably wasn't going to stay in his life either. Zander snapped, "NO!"he snarled, tugging his fingers through his hair. "Don-Don't say you're fucking sorry!"he screamed closing his eyes. "Everyone says they're sorry, they fucking did nothing!"He said. Zander cussing? That's new. "I'm the only one to blame not you, not my mom, nor my sister, nor no one! Only me! Zander fidgeted, running his fingers through his hair. Zander stood on the brink of tears, staring at this boy. He stepped back and bit his bottom lip roughly.

He was sure the boy would start crying now. "I-I'm so-sorr-sorry" he stuttered and wrapped his arms around the boy, the one he liked, the one he yelled at. He pressed the boy to him. "I am sooo sorry." he whispered, closing his eyes tightly. God, he was an idiot, Mel was sure to not want to talk to him now. He released the boy at this thought and stepped back, staring at his feet. Zander was feeling bi-polar, one moment sad, the next angry, the one after sorry. He needed his mind straight, or it'd kill him. Straight ha! He hated himself right now. Sooo much.

Nick shoved Zander down. He stared up at the boy sorrow in his eyes. “Wha-what was that for? ”he asked , shocked. “You-you lied!” Nick screamed at the boy leaning up on his elbows. “What? About what?’ Zander said, not a clue what the other was talking about. He watched as Nick ran his fingers through his hair, frustrated. “You said you would let me date her, you stole her.” he said, looking on the brink of tears. “You told me you didn’t like her anymore and you liked someone else.” Zander said, crawling out of the mud and leaning against the wooden back of his house. “I-I do like someone else.” Nick responded, calmly. “Who?” Zander asked gruffly, trying to shift topics a little bit. “You.” Nick said softly, barely audible. Zander’s sharp angry features dropped to a shocked and sympathetic face. He stuttered a bit, loss for words. Then, he kissed him, ever so softly, not pinning against the wall, not rough, more like pressing their lips together. Zander kind of liked it, but, he wouldn’t admit it, not to his family at least. His lips pulled into a small smile. “I like you too.” he whispered. That was it, conversation over. But, they sat back there for at least a few hours, staring, talking a little, and a little bit of making out.

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[Mel Kucharski]

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The door fell shut with a quick and vicious sound. Zander's features changed from exhaustion to exhausted outrage in hardly a second. "No!" he snapped. The sudden sound was just a sharp as the slamming of the door. Mel jumped, he wasn't accustomed to being yelled at. In fact, it scared him, scared the wits out of him. He took half step back, face full of shock. Zander wasn't done yet though.

"Don-Don't say you're fucking sorry!" Zander's eyes fell shut, as if he were searching for an answer inside himself. Mel was taken aback. He perhaps had an inkling of a thought that this might happen, but he didn't take it seriously. After all Zander liked him, right? Or, if not that, at least felt a little something? The sound of yelling set him to shaking. He wrapped his arms around himself as though it were the only safe place, feeling like nothing more then fleeing the scene and going back to his room to cry. He couldn't though, Zander was in between the door and him. Bad things might happen if he tried to make and escape. He was a man standing on a land mine, if he moved or tried to get away he'd be caught in an even more volatile situation.

But, Zander wouldn't have ever hurt him right? Mel wanted to believe it with all his heart, but he had also thought Zander wouldn't be swearing at him. He wasn't in his correct mind set right now. He felt the pressure of tears behind his eyes. No where to go. He stood, shaking like a fall leaf as the brunette continued. His eyes opened again, "I'm the only one to blame not you, not my mom, nor my sister, nor no one! Only me!"

Mel locked eyes with him and found himself speechless, "Z-zander.. I..I--" Just then, Zander's vision seemed to clear, like clouds leaving the sky. He stuttered an small apology and stepped forward. "I-I'm so-sorr-sorry. I am soooo sorry."

Mel visibly flinched, but stayed stuck to the spot as the older boy's arms wrapped around him. Mel felt a high-pitched whimper escape his throat as Zander pulled him. What had just happened? One moment he was being yelled at, the next he was back in Zander's arms with an apology as well. It just didn't make sense to him. After someone yelled, he was supposed to defend himself or leave, he didn't want to do either. The first tear slid down his cheek to his chin, where it finally dripped to the hard wooden floor.

His shoulders were tensed when Zander finally released him. He was so confused. He took a couple steps back, until he touched the nearest bed, watching Zander all the while with vacant and glassy eyes. With nothing else to do, he slid down to the floor. Sitting cross-legged, he worked his fingers through his hair, pulling at it a bit to draw his attention away from the sting of tears as they came forth one by one. "I.. I don't understand." he was really crying now, his voice was hardly above a whisper, "I just don't understand..." Someone needed to make sense of this mad world.

Aleksy simply motioned to a group of boys jacking around somewhere in front of them. Haley made a sour face. Then Aleksy realized what she was thinking, "No.."

Haley nodded, "Yes. They are bullies! I'm in second grade! That makes me older."

Aleksy blinked, "You are?"

"Yes. And they shouldn't be picking on a girl anyway!"

Aleksy looked at his hands, "But.. I'm a boy." He said in a tiny voice.

Haley seemed surprised too, "Really?! you look like a girl!"

Aleksy smiled and touched his hair which came down to his cheek at that time, girls were pretty. They smelled nice and got to wear nice things. Boys, on the other hand, were mean and stole your shoes. In his world, boys were not something to aspire to Aleksy wished he could be a girl right now, but settled for this, "Thank you."

Word count; 716
tag; Zander~
notes; D'aww, sad DDDD:
outfit; Hurr :3

[Zander Alesnia]

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Zander watched the boy as he backed up. Really in deep shit now. Tears bubbled at his eyes and curled over the eye lid, sliding down his cheeks. He blinked them away rapidly. He felt useless, sitting and staring at the crying boy in front of him. "Mel." he said slowly. He bent down in front of the boy, cautiously. "I wasn't thinking, I didn-didn't mean to ye-yell." he whimpered now not doing anything to stop his own tears. "I just don't understand." "I'm sorry." he said again tears spewing from his eyes. He choked apologies out between sobs. This is not Zander, not the Zander he knew, not the Zander Mel knew. What happened, never like this ever. He hesitated to reach up and wipe away Mel's tears but, he did it anyways. He really hoped Mel didn't think he was a violent person, he's not. Zander's hand gently wiped away his own tears.

"Look at us, we're both crying." he said sympathetically. He tried to fake a smile for the boy, hoping he didn't wake up his neighbors. He stared at the boy for a long second. Without a single thought he gently took Mel's face in his hand and brought his face closer to the boy. He moved in to close the distance between their lips and stopped, about a centimeter away. Zander just sat there, not moving, his eyes scanning the boy's face at this close of a distance. It seemed that closer his face was to Mel's the cuter the boy was. He took a deep breath, breathing against the boy's face, closing his eyes. Then he did it, he closed the distance between their lips. He gently kissed the boy for only a second but, it seemed like an eternity. When he pulled away and dropped the boy's face his face turned a scarlet red and his jaw quivered. "uh...." he was at a loss of words for his own actions.

"Zander, don't cry, please!"the words echoed in his head. Zander's bottom lip quivered. "I'm only going home, I'll be back tomorrow." Nick chuckled, gently kissing the boy. "I know, but, it didn't seem like we had much time together."Zander said sorrowfully. Nick bit his bottom lip in thought. "I can ask my mom if I can spend the night." Nick said, pitching the idea with hope. "I'll ask my mom, kay?" he asked already knowing the answer. Nick smiled and gently pinned the boy against the house and kissing him. Zander slid his arms around the boys neck, kissing back.

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[Mel Kucharski]

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"Mel, I wasn't thinking, I didn-didn't mean to ye-yell." he sensed Zander lower himself to be on level with him. He coud tell because of the own sobs he heard. He didn't dare look up, instead he bit down-hard enough till in hurt- on his lip, effectively silencing the sound of crying. Instead the sobs silently wracked his shoulders coming out as not more than a little whimper with each. Tears were trickier to hide, they got everywhere, and in Mel's case, turned his eyes red. He didn't want Zander to see him like this. Not a broken-down, teary-eyed, raw-nerved mass of mess. It was a totally open and unembellished picture of him, he was totally helpless. Hardly more than a child in this state. How humiliating. All it had taken were two sentences to break him to bits.

Zander's hand hovered inches away from his face before it brushed against his damp cheek, catching a teardrop and dispelling it. Mel looked up, sniffed loudly and rubbed the back of his hand across his face. Dropping his arm as Zander said "Look at us, we're both crying."

Unable to help himself and looking for any bit of comfort, he gave a small smile at the comment and nodded. "Y-yea-ah." he struggled to make the word sound complete and perhaps confident. He wanted to be strong, but something happened them that absolutely made him melt. Zander's fingers worked under his chin and cupped it, tilting it up ever so slightly so that light shone on it. His face was suddenly very, very close. Zander's eyes flicked over every feature, studying it as though intended to draw it. Mel could do nothing but look at his eyes, they were blue, they had a somewhat non-human element about them. Typically they would be clear, but now they were fogged with the aftermath of tears. To Mel, it made them more arresting and lovely. Like looking out over a lake as rains cleared. The boy's breath caught, while Zander's own breath wafted across his face it smelled kind of like fish. Though, it wasn't unpleasant. It teased his bangs a bit, causing them to fall over his eyes. He would've liked to have reached up and brush away the hair, but his mind was elsewhere. It was much more focused on Zander's slightly parted lips steadily growing closer and closer until finally there was a slight pressure on his own lips. It took him a moment to realize what was happening to him. Zander's lips were pressed against his, soft and gentle. But before he could return the kiss. It was over.

Mel sat still, mouth parted slightly, not quite sure what he should do. He lifted his hand and gently touched his lower lip. That was the first time. He had been kissed one other time on the lips, but at that time it had been an just an act. It wasn't something with emotion behind it. Nothing like this. So in a way this was his first kiss, actually, that was a lie. He hadn't gotten the chance to kiss back, he still hadn't had his official first kiss. A tiny and sad smile played on his lips. He made a decision and leaned in, turning his head just a bit. He was so close yet at the same time, far away. He couldn't do it. Millimeters away from kissing him back, he froze. He just couldn't do it. Instead he just wrapped his arms around Zander's hiding his face in the privacy of the curve of his neck. His crying ceased, replaced by choked hiccups. But he was still left shaking, clinging to the person he loved but couldn't work up the courage to kiss.

The second the bus screeched to a hault. Haley, the brunette with a short bob, grabbed Aleksy's hand. Moving past him and pulling him along. She dragged him all the way off the bus. When their feet touched the pavement. Haley's hand detached from his and she took off running. Aleksy stood, mortified as Haley ran forward with a shout towards the groups of boys he had pointed out earlier. She jumped and wrapped her arms around the biggest boy's neck, dragging him down into the grass. The other boys screamed and ran for it while the little girl shouted in the boy's ear. Finally she released him and he ran too.

She walked up to a terrified Aleksy with the biggest smile on her face, "They said you find it underneath the couch cushion!"

Alesky could hardly move, "huh?"

"Your shoe! It's under the couch cushion! we'll get it tomorrow, okay?"

Word count; 822
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notes; hehe, Mel can be such a wimp *pokes him with a stick*
outfit; Hurr :3

[Zander Alesnia]

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Zander watched the boy for a long second. He followed the boy's every movement. He just stared at him, loss for everything at the moment. The boy leaned up to kiss him but, seemingly chickened out as he moved his face to Zander's neck and choked sobs. He gently wrapped his arms around the boy and lifted him into his lap. Zander gently kissed the top of the boy's head, stroking his back in a comforting manor. He ran his fingers through the boy's hair, half-smiling. He liked it here, Mel's warmth against his bare chest. He smiled at this thought, Mel his.

A playful smirk traced his features and lit his eyes as he then reached back to the boy's chin. He pried the boy's face from his neck and tilted it to his face, gently kissing him again, holding the kiss for longer. He felt tears well in his eyes. Why was he crying? He didn't feel sad at all, in fact he felt happy. Tears of joy, that must be it. He slowly closed his eyes still holding his lips against Mel's. If Mel contested to this action, Mel was perfectly capable of pulling away. His hands followed to the sides of Mel's face, tugging his face closer to his, deepening the kiss. His hands then trailed to the back of Mel's head, pulling Mel's hair out of a pony tail then tangling his fingers in the recently freed golden blonde stands of hair. His stomach fluttered happily before, he finally broke the kiss.

He then opened his eyes and stared at the boy for a long moment. Zander tugged the boy back into another quick kiss. He gently bit his bottom lip as he leaned back to examine the boy. In the yellow, florescent light of his bedroom, he still looked fantastic. He could even take him home to meet his family, Mel can pull of being a girl. Zander smiled contently at this thought. A small chuckle passed his lips. What were they now? We're they boyfriend and boyfriend? Or would it ruin it by labeling what they had? 'Cause what they had was certainly special. Did he love him? Just as he had loved Nick? Was Nick the 'cause of their love? "We'll be friends forever, right?" "Till we die.""I love you." the words slipped out, barely a whisper. That could ruin this couldn't it? What was he thinking? That's right he wasn't thinking! He gently bit his bottom lip as his face filled with a tomato red color.

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Mel made no protest to being pulled into Zander's lap, instead he pressed against him. Soft clothing brushed over exposed skin, but there was only one person shaking and it certainly wasn't because of the cold. No, the only person who was shaking was Mel, and it was for fear. Not the same 'man-standing-on-a-land mine' fear of before but the fear of rejection. Yes, Zander had kissed him, and yes Mel wanted to kiss back. But paranoia pressed on him, what if this was some cruel joke? What if any second from now Zander would disappear from his life forever? It was all quite irrational, but the fear struck like an ambush. For that he found himself hanging onto Zander for all he was worth. He had apologized for snapping, that was all there was to it. In Mel's mind it was dead. And Zander, his Zander, the person whom he had first met and fallen for in little over a week, was back. The other side was buried right now.

He felt something brush against the very top of his head, it was difficult to distinguish what it was, but then he felt fingers move through it. He drew in a sharp breath, angling his head so as to expose it to more of the tender touch. He really had a weakness for being petted. The sensation left, however, when fingers grazed over his cheek, ever so lightly. A tingle ran down his spine at the contact and his face was withdrawn from the secret alcove of the juncture between Zander's neck and shoulder. He found himself face to face with the older boy again. And again, pulled into a kiss. Mel's eyes widened with surprise for a moment before slowly, fluttering shut. Zander's hands were on his face, moving back until the felt his hair fall loose over the nape of his neck. The hands tangled themselves in his hair, only serving to deepen it. He gasped against Zander's mouth but remained put, and not before long he was kissing back. He quivered a tiny bit in the boy's grasp. So this was it. His first kiss. He had never imagined it to be so wonderful, his heart seemed to be unable to decide wether it should stop completely or just beat faster. His stomach was in a free-fall and his mind was totally frazzled. His left hand slid up from the top of Zander's back all the way up to the nape of his neck, playing his fingers through the hair he found.

He hardly noticed when Zander broke away, the only indication was the lack of pressure on his lips. The sensation was still there, but most of all the taste. It would be difficult to describe what Zander "tasted" like. One of the things Mel noticed was a bit of a fishy taste, again, it wasn't a bad thing. In fact, it blended quite nicely with other unidentifiable tastes. Mel's eyes flickered opened just enough to lock with Zander's, but before he could regather his wits, Zander kissed him. Briefly but still a kiss. He pulled away to leave the smaller boy panting slightly.

Mel felt like he was in a dream. Zander almost looked the same way. The came the words, soft and small, but tender and meaniful, "I love you." Mel's lips parted slightly. He had heard those three words dozens of times. Sometimes between couples, between parent and child, but mostly just squandered away or used for purposes that had nothing to do with love. People didn't realize the power of those words, it was enough power for Mel not only to hear it, but to also feel it. never before had those words felt so alive an vivid. Never so much like he could reach out and touch it. So he did. Lifting his right hand he placed it on Zander's cheek, stroking with his thumb.

Drawing a deep breath he leaned in next to the boy's ear and whispered, "Al-Alek-Aleksy." it was difficult, forcing himself to say that name, but it also didn't help that the combination or Zander's kiss and the utter imminence of his hiccups rendered him speechless. "That's my name.. Aleksy Mel Kucharski.." he moved backwards to search Zander's eyes for something.. anything. Without waiting for an answer, he forced himself to tip his face forward and press his mouth against Zander's. It was only fair, Zander had already initiated a kiss three time. It was his turn. He held it for as long as he could before embarrassment and the ever-present fear of a roommate entering the room would allow.
That night his father yelled. Angry at him for fighting a boy after the bus ride home. They had gotten a call. He had to go to bed with no supper feeling nothing more than like his little world was falling apart. Friendships turned into punishments, fathers turned into beasts. What a mad world. There was not a safe place. he found his safe place, curled up in Zander's grasp. "Kocham cię.. it was his language. The highest honor he knew to bestow, 'I love you' in his fore father's tongue. A phrase so embedded in him it went back generations. He nuzzled against Zander's cheek, "Kocham cię, please.. don't let go of me. I just want to know you're really here.." eventually, and without a single complaint his tears settled and disappeared leaving only damp tracks to indicate where they had once been.

Word count; 969 (Personal Best!)
tag; Zander~
notes; *explodes with candy*
outfit; Hurr :3